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its 1:20 in e morning. why am i here? cos i need a break frm chem. cos when i mug i do this: read- write - check - write again - memorise - write - move on. n my hand hurts frm e writing.


is there any other way for me to memorise it all easier?


unfortunately no.


well life wasnt meant to be simple or easy anyways.


lifes tough isnt it?


no matter how many times u fall u still have to pick urself up again. cos u'll get trampled by e ppl behind u; those ppl who r jus waiting for u to fail so they can step over u n be better den u.


i dont pick myself up for my own sake. i jus dont wanna see those ppl at e back grinning.


e tale of common DOOM is coming to an end. in 2 more days n 2 more papers we'll all be set free. e qns is: for how long? before u noe it midyears will be coming.


e future looks seriously bleak.


am i just a substitute? was it all just a lie?
i dont know. but i sure feel like just a replacement right now.
is tt all i shall ever be? there to take the place of others yet never able to match up with the real person.


what am i living this lie for?


just to be a substitute for others -


no matter how hard i try; no matter how bitterly i cry -