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HAPPPPPPYYY BIRTHDAYYYYYY TO JADIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

to my fellow jumper & dear fren:
3 years: thats how long we've known each other, thats how long we've been friends.
2 years: thats how long we've been fellow trackers and fellow jumpers.
1 year: thats how long we've been best buds? i didnt really count.

i was too busy counting my blessings for having such a wonderful friend like you.

we've shared tears, worries, pain, laughs and smiles.
we've shared tons of food too (:

and so, to my fellow shopper for stationery, i wish you a happy 15th birthday and may all your birthday + other wishes, hopes and dreams all come true :D

well, not the nightmares of course.

hoping to see us share more psychotic laughs, smiles that will make mr darlie jealous and delicious, oh-so-yummy food together!

- your fellow jumper + trackmate + idiotic person who believes that carrots and stationery will rule the world someday.


i forgot to mention this in ytd's post but i saw soon hock in straits times newspaper! they were writing about hwa chong sweeping the boys a, b and c div titles :D they even interviewed him! man, he makes me proud to be in track (not that i wasn't of course :)

DSA tests for the p6 kiddos tmr at rv. athletics having our own so i'm going to help. can get a preview of the future prospect of rv athletics. i hope we find some outstanding runners..


went for selftrain today. saw jj piaing his laps and i was totally stunned and pressurised. of course, i did much less (and worse) then him. only managed to run 6laps (2.4km) in 13mins ): had to stop cos of back pains. my papa's hereditary disease is back.

mr tan talked to me abit and asked how i was coping with my maths now. to think he still rmbs i totally sucked at maths in sec1 and half of sec2. so touched :') last time he offered me extra remedial but i was too lazy to accept LOL


some things cannot be counted, weighed or measured.


today i slept through chinese and didn't wake up in time to greet ms yew. she looked horribly pissed off.

my sleeping hours are taking their toll on me.

today was SPA bio practical. to be honest, i thought it was quite fun. except for the fact i ge kiang then didn't follow each step correctly. mrs lim spent half her time asking me to "read the instructions carefully"

in short: i'm more or less gonna fail.

but the test did teach me something. i managed to light a bunsen burner with a match (not those auto-lighters) ! woohoo! maybe i'm not so hopeless after all (:

oops. cannot disclose more of the test i guess. since others haven't taken it yet (erm i thought i was the last class? LOL)


i want my teddy;
the life size one.


racial harmony day rocked :D

i truly believe in only enjoying something if you're enthu about it first.

it was kinda sad that i was the only one enthu about the food and games but nonetheless, i influenced jade baneh weekiat and even yuping (: ok i admit i wasn't much help for my own class game stall. oops :x next time, next time i promise i'll help!

the concert was quite fun. i even won an oreo bar!! and i sabo-ed caibei and xintong to go on stage and be sari models.

the carnival was fun. loved the food especially my oreo milkshake! oh caibei owes me a choc milkshake.

didn't win any prizes but playing the games were fun in their own right. though i gotta admit, i tend to shout too loudly when i'm overexcited :D

sorry to jade baneh and weekiat who had to put up with my shouting and screaming..

and yes, i was the only girl in my class who didn't wear a ethnic costume.

woops.


first the train ride home-
now the bus ride home.


i made a terrible mistake.

will the fairytale, that never was, come to an end soon?

and i will be the one who destroyed it.

as the nightmares continue in the quiet night, i can only cry in my dreams.

and i woke up in the middle of the night, my pillow wet with tears as i whispered your name.


a short little story i wrote. used stellar and shinn from gundam seed destiny but you can imagine the two little kids to be anyone you want (:

*

The little girl happily skipped down the shoreline, her sandy blonde hair sparkling in the sunlight. The golden star was setting, casting a vibrant orange glow on the once cerulean sea. Innocent magenta eyes shone with joy, her laughter filling the air as the cold waves lapped at her tiny feet.

Suddenly, she stopped. The breeze picked up, its breath cold and icy. It blew on the little girl's face, crystalline tears slowly began flowing down her cheek.

Where are you?

She missed him. He would always be with her when she went to the beach. He knew she loved the sea so he always brought her there to watch the waves. They played together for hours on end, making sandcastles and writing childish things in the sand. She choked back a sob.

She still wore the shell he had given her as a necklace.

The blonde girl continued walking down the sandy coast, her tears did not stop. Before long, she chanced upon a stick. Sniffling, she used it to draw a picture in the sand.

*

"There! Finished!"

Stepping back, she admired her masterpiece. It showed two children, a boy and a girl, holding hands and happily smiling at each other. Just like me and him...

But the waves did not agree. They rushed in, foaming over the picture and destroying it. Gasping, the little girl anxiously waited for the waves to pull back. When they did, only half the picture remained.

The little boy had been swept away.

Sobbing loudly, she covered her face with her small hands. Why aren't things like before? Where is he? He promised he would never leave me. He knows I hate being alone-

"Why are you crying, Stellar?"

She stopped. Sniffing, she removed her hands. Maroon eyes stared in disbelief. "S-Shinn?"

Gentle crimson met surprised fuchsia, the raven haired boy smiling back at the little girl. "Why are you crying? Didn't you promise me you wouldn't cry anymore? I don't want to see you cry."

Hastily, Stellar wiped her tears away. "Stellar wasn't crying! Th-There was sand in my eyes!"

He laughed. She joined him.

"Stellar missed you. Where did you go?"

The little boy sighed. "I'm here, aren't I?"

She pouted. Then her face fell once more. "Are you going to leave Stellar again?"

He didn't answer. For a long while, the two children just sat on the sand, watching the sun set and give way to the moon. It was dark before Shinn spoke again.

"I have to go."

She was afraid. "Where?"

"Somewhere." He quickly added before she could protest, "No, you can't come."

The little girl frowned. "Don't you want Stellar anymore?"

"Stellar..." He sighed. "I can't stay." Shinn's eyes softened when he saw tears brimming in the little girl's eyes again. "Hey, don't cry. Hey... As long as you remember me, I'll come back."

A smile. "Promise?"

"Promise."

*

She couldn't remember when she had fallen asleep but Stellar was awoken by her mother's shouts.

"Stellar! You've been here for almost five hours!"

"Sorry, Mum. But guess what!" Stellar's face brightened and her eyes had a shine in them. "I saw Shinn!"

Her mother choked upon the boy's name. "What?"

"I saw Shinn! I gotta go tell Daddy!"

With that, the little girl raced to tell her father. When her mother approached the man, he had a look of disbelief and worry on his face.

"Did... Did Stellar tell you she saw... Shinn?"

Her mother nodded silently. Both parents sighed.

They had never told her, but the little boy whom she so dearly loved, had died in a car accident two years ago.

*

That night, Stellar slept soundly, murmuring in her dreams.

Stellar won't forget our promise, Shinn... Stellar will always remember...

*

darn i hate myself. i always have to write sad, angsty stories ):


my run (not literally) in the nationals has come to an end.

i failed to qualify for either jumping events, not even long jump.

maybe it was because i just found out the qualifying mark is 4.3m, maybe it was the rain, maybe it was because my dad got lost and i was late in getting to the stadium, maybe it was the blasted headache, maybe god didn't like me.

i tell myself these are all excuses.

effort? i could have slapped myself but it's too late for regrets. the officials wont give me a second chance just to prove my lazy ass.

nope. that would be next year.

after i grill myself, after i curse myself, after i cry, after i train harder than i ever did, after i have confidence in myself, after i'm ready.

then i'll go challenge the rest. then i'll go challenge gail. then i'll go challenge myself.

for now, just let me challenge the damn headache i had throughout the day.


as i stared out at the rain, i watched it fall onto the track, onto the field, onto the jump pit.

my heart wanted to cry, but my eyes refused to let the tears fall.

he wasn't there for me and i couldn't cry infront of the trackers again, certainly not jade.

as the rain continued to fall (for me?), i could only sleep and cry in my dreams.


i was suppose to post about nats.

and then i realised i can't really rmb what happened at the jumps.

well, other then i didn't qualify for triple jump finals.

long jumps on monday. can i do it?

p.s b girls qualified for 4x1oo semis! and i can pon school cos of them :D



tmr will be a fun fun day (:

i'm gonna acknowledge my papa!



the hole just keeps getting bigger;


NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

final score:

germany o italy 2 (after extra time)

and as the horizontal black, red and yellow flag drops from the worldcup, the whole nation mourns their loss. as do the german players, the captain, the coach, and some drunk guy in a random pub in berlin.

italy confirm their place in the worldcup finals, while germany has to wait for another four more years.


watching the germany v italy semi final match !

its so weird. i think both teams are really nervous so they keep tripping and falling over each other xD

italy's jersey design is kinda weird. they have dark blue patches at the sides and it looks like they sweat too much LOL! and there's this italian player i call 'samurai' cos his hair is in a bundle.. my aunt says his hair looks like those big calligraphy brush..

ole germany!


training (yesterday) was quite ok. baked through warmup. the track was practically radiating with heat.

i swear i smelt the rubber burning.

did 2 full runs of 4x1oo. teamed with baneh, weewee and shanie shan shan :D i think our team was good cept baneh kinda got probs passing to weewee. hope we can do more full runs!

but my 5oo sucked. period.

judgement day is here.
o7o7. 1oo7.

dare to dream.


why couldn't i save it?

i let it down.

why did i hesitate?

i was thinking of myself first.

why didn't i just hold on?

i was afraid.

why didn't i try harder?

i let it escape- injured.

why did it turn out this way?

i let it run off in pain.

will it die?

then it will be my fault.

i'm sorry.