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REALRUN;

my first 5.5km run this year. wasn't as nervous as i thought i would be.

seriously, was i even thinking?

for this race, it was the first time i expected so much from myself. and yet in the end, i still failed.

i sorta get how minzhang felt at nats.

i don't know what to say, i don't know what to feel, i don't know what to do.

i feel numb after what i did at the collection booth.

the only good thing was i rmb i was real fast at the sand part and that i saw my little didi cheering me on with lirui and guanloong at the finish line.

i practically flew the last stretch cos of them. so thanks?

but the scene at the finishing line was the part that tore me up.

at the collection booth, thanks to karen, jo, peishi and leena for cheering me up. or tried. even emi and jan said not to be so sad.

but there's still a sour and empty feeling in my heart. was it that i overestimated myself? maybe i didn't train hard enough? can someone tell me that i was just too moronic to set that kind of expectations?

yeowlin,
i'm sorry but i don't know what to say to anyone right now.


i've mentioned so many people for thanks, and yet one name still hasn't come up. why?

you're too busy caring abt others to see my heart close up again..