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sec4 graduation today.

considering that my eyes were swollen like a goldfish's, i was quite surprised i actually managed to catch something on stage.

what can i say, i'm glad the seniors are graduating. they're starting on a new journey (of more studying..) and even though, goodbyes are always hard, i should be happy for them.

should.

i didnt cry during the ceremony. i'm not that sap. it was sad but the worst part was when i saw him go on stage. i didnt know what to do, what to think.

he's leaving...

what was i suppose to do?

how could i be happy for him when i feel so empty?

do i just let him walk out of my life...?

so i did the only thing i did best.

pretend to sleep and act like i dont care, even if i was being torn apart inside.

somebody just sedate me.

i've had enough of this.

i dont want to cry again..

i dont want to wake up...