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"Why do you always think so far ahead? Don't you enjoy the present? The future isn't even here yet..."

That's who I am.

"Are you... crying?"

Yes.

"Please tell me what's wrong..."

Don't let go.

"Are you afraid?"

Yes, afraid that you'll leave...

"Don't cry..."

How can I?

"I'm still here, aren't I?"

Are you, really?

"Don't you believe me?"

I want to, but those images, those words are burned inside my heart...

"Don't..."

Leave.

Oh, how alone under the starry night
Dreaming of angels that will soon fall from grace.
The warmth I once held so dearly
Seems to be slowly slipping away, together with the chilling wind.

Oh, let the rain fall
Let the thunder roar.
In the midst of underlying chaos
Let me remember who I once was.

Silence comes and all I pray for
Is strength to believe, once more.

2more days. my only wish, to have the strength to hold on and never let him go;

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that was the emo post i was supposed to update 3days ago. unfortunately, my literature and linguistic skills were so pro, blogger ate it and didnt allow me to update.

here's today's less emo but still worthy of woodbridge post :)

picture the scene:

you're in your dad's car with your mum singing a song just a little pop for her age and you're in the back seat, tapping your foot impaitiently, mentally urging your dad to go faster and take over that neon green volkwagen beetle in the other lane.

why the rush?

you're late for training.

suddenly, your phone rings (ringtone: reason from gundam seed destiny. ok fine, that's MY ringtone) and some high-pitched voice with water gushing in the background says "hello?!"

oh god its your training obsessed enthu friend checking whether you've drowned on your way to macritchie reservoir. you expect her to say something along the line of "its 8:o1, where the F are you?!" and training was supposed to start at 8.

instead she says:

"what's the biggest species of lizard in singapore?"

that's what happened to me this morning. minus the neon green volkswagen beetle. the entire team saw daniel II (the monitor lizard living in macritchie who loves to swim) cos they were early and i didnt cos i was late.

damn.

was suppose to do library cip with lok-ge today but there were too many other people piaing cip hours there too plus no librarian was free to show us around. in the end a wasted trip to je :(

well not too wasted.

i think i blew kahlok away with my parapara skills. HEE.

ugh, mrs kan (surprisingly) remembers the commonwealth essay me and marcus were supposed to do during the hols, which obviously neither of us has done. the deadline's monday *sobs*

why now, when all my brain juices has evaporated.

sigh. i've wrote for the commonwealth essay for 3years already and i haven't even get something of a commendation. why do they still bother asking me?

all i can churn out is angst stuff anyway, not those happy-happy fairytale endings the judges are trying to find.

ok im going to mope.

i write better when im depressed.

gotta go find my emo switch again-

ooh this will help. s triple a race next saturday.