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woot, gotten my first KI assignment :D

Thunder roars, lightning chases
For his capture Heaven rages
Hell is in chaos, demons in fury
For the tabooed hybrid still roams free

Gaia can no longer be quelled
For he taints her land with the ones he's felled
Midgard is in bliss
Ignorance, a deadly kiss
The Berserker seeks the salvation he shall never possess
Roaming the lands for blood and death


NJC- Schools Digital Media Awards (1)

NJC- Schools Digital Media Awards (2)

my civics tutor sent me an email stating that our school's entries were shortlisted as finalists and they needed our votes. thus the shameless promotion for them. the fact that the first one features my lit teacher makes it a must vote :D

woot, rock on mr.whitby!!

ugh.. i can feel the viruses gnawing my brain..


go away viruses..

just go away..


where are the candles?


yeahhhhhhhhhh!

'soundtrack' is over!!!! *kneels down and extends arms upwards*

and i didn't screw up!! *repeats motion*

i guess i shouldn't, considering i'm only in charge of the lighting board (my role for the indian dance music was cut because they gave a new disc that was to be played on the com. which zhiping has absolute control of. ABSOLUTE.)

but i still thoroughly enjoyed myself and i learnt alot from this event! i'm glad i had the chance to work with the other PA members :D

woot! NJPA- first in, last out.

hey, you need someone to do it.

chingay training o1 later!! can't wait.. (it's at rj after all) hope to see piangs and yish there!! :D

nic lim is going for chingay too! LOL. shall show my friends who's the wayang king with the weird speech pattern.

i can feel something gnawing my brain.


woot!

'Soundtrack' tomorrow! some nj fund raiser featuring a number of musical acts (shouldn't disclose what they are wahaha)

first official PA event i'll be working on!

woot- gonna rely on zhiping-shifu like crazy xD kinda afraid i'll screw up (somehow, even though i'm practically in charge of a button. yes, one button)

do not fail me fingers' dexterity!

i must not say so many vulgar words :( especially infront of emily. her presence triggers some "switch to vulgar mode" function in my brain. hee. we played pool in the student lounge today! super duper fun!

i totally worship my lit teacher *wallows in disappearing self esteem*

chingay training on saturaday! gonna be at RJC! can't wait hee-

so totally random now. i have econs homework due on monday. whee.

my brain isn't functioning well.

mmmm. sausage.

KABOOM.


*twitch*

my dark side got out in the previous post.

thinking sexy kanda thoughts has helped curb the urge to stab the nearest living thing around me.

sigh- as tyki mikk says,

the fun is in having both black and white sides.

grr, though sometimes my black side should go into some corner and continue growing mushrooms.

EDIT: just remembered i wanted to add this..!

i was bathing and the water ran over my blister on my right thumb (went for softball "training". being the failure that i am i already obtained 2 blisters on each hand) it stung (i have a low threshold of pain)and i was like,

"BE A MANNNN~ SUCK IT UPPPPP!"

of course.. it was more of a hiss than a shout (think kanda yu) but i was still highly amused at what i said.

guffaws.


just finished writing a journal entry for mr. deric low (my civics tutor, ie. a fancy name for form teacher) and well.. when i start reflecting upon things, i tend to overdo it.

wrote all that crap about being accepted for who i am in nj, not being ostracized for being different blah blah.

but seriously, i wonder how different i really am.

maybe, i like to think i'm different, i go around preaching that i'm different, but.. in the end, i'm just like everybody else.

we all seek to be accepted.

am i not one of them?

i want to be different, so i start acting emo, loner and reject all those around me?

maybe.

though i obviously know it's the wrong way to go about it.

i came up with a phrase once. "to transcend human understanding"

i'm deeply fascinated by that.

obsessed even.

i think alot of my dreams (and fears) stem from that simple idea. to go beyond what is human, to do what no one ever could.

immortality?

genius?

perfection?

i can hear myself snorting.

all these are merely a cry of weakness, aren't they?

people who use extravagant words usually do it to cover up a flaw, a weakmess, a shame, they unconsciously wish to hide. am i not human too? do i not have weaknesses?

i crave such strength, such perfection, such immortality, isn't it just because i do not want to seem weak?

it the very fact that i am human, i am flawed, that i seek an idea greater than myself, an idea that transcends human understanding.

that is the fuel for progress.

only when you are flawed, can progress be achieved.

one thing that has been on my mind is something one of my teachers once told me. i had a little chat session with him that seriously intrigued and totally changed my mindset about certain things.

i mentioned i was different (not so straightforwadly, but ya that's the main gist) and he said.. all of us like to think we're individualistic, that we are unique, that we are different.

but in the end, students are characterised by teachers into certain types and well. that kinda killed my entire "WHEE LOOK AT ME! I'M SPECIAL- ONE OF A KIND!" mindset.

gross, the things i do to attract attention.

sometimes i think it's stupid and shameful, that to be noticeable, to be different, i do stupid and idiotic things.

(shout at the top of my voice, do stupid dances in the canteen, you guys know the drill)

lirui once said, "walao, act only, like to act!"

of course i know he didn't mean it in a "damn-you-AA-bitch" kind of way but.

i immediately agreed with him.

i like to act.

i guess, that's all there is to it.

i'm an actor who savours the limelight, i'm an actor who acts just for the sake of being different.

but in the end, i am just like everyone else.

in the end, i am still human.

this is one of the limitations i can never escape, yet at the same time, it is because i am human, that i can transcend current homo sapien understanding.

but, in the end, it doesn't even matter (linkin park put it too well)

because in the end, i'll just disappear from the face of this earth.

in the end, i still have to face Death.

and all of a sudden, i wish he was here.

Squirming like a little worm,
Trapped in the labyrinth,
Darkness, Death,
Chaos in the only rule.


Everything is as it is on the surface; everything, except what it truly is.



my sleeping habits are obviously not getting any better.

GRR> *pokes part of brain in charge of sleeping timing* work you lazy piece of sausage, WORK!

hm. brains remind me of long strings of sausages. or should that be intestines? pondering time.

i just realised 'pondering about porn' rhymes.

genius.

anyway to spare you the brilliant-ness of myself, let's see what we did today for orientation!

i disgraced myself on the track cos i totally suck at the mass dance.

brain does not coordinate hand-leg, only eye-hand (read: para para!)

having a partner doesn't help. seriously. it just makes the coordination problem even worse.

(EQ's perspective: takes a glance to her left and sees her cousin smacked on the floor. not moving. thinking her cousin has suffered from not-enough-clothes withdrawal again. even though her cousin takes up 9427/1ooo of the space in the cupboard she and EQ share. and the bar holding the clothes is about to snap under the immense strain.)

and the people on the balcony filming us, please, don't degrade yourselves. go find other things for entertainment (looking at the wall of achievements outside the general office?) it'll be more fun than watching a bunch of noob J1s desperately trying to perfect a dance that is supposedly "easy peasy".

oh i know why people watch us. so they can do this: watch, stare, point, laugh. repeat as many times as necessary.

ah well, public humiliation is all part of growing up.

MY IDOL: MR. BENZIE DIO :DDDDDDDDD (even his name is funky! woot!)


just spent 3hours re-doing my entire blog. (no this skin only took me about an hour of fiddling and being a perfectionist; the first 2hours were spent on skins i couldn't modify due to my utterly failure-esque html skills)

and yes, that IS a picture of Lavi from D.Gray-man :3

(hair down, check. open shirt, check. eyepatch, check. blood, check. too-sexy-to-die-for-look, check. ok, it's time to oogle at the smex.)

sorry for ripping off the rainbow-coloured link things (when you hover over a link) from peishi's blog!

ahh, the wonders of Ctrl+U.

i'm so screwed, my biological clock refuses to reset itself to school waking/sleeping time.

*the black words on top are navigation (in case some moron doesn't realise that)

sigh, i still love the simple black/white + a picture layout x3


:D

the smiley face says alot about nj orientation so far, doesn't it?

i pay attention to relatively minute and "unimportant" stuff (eg. how clear instructions are, how the timetable is planned out) and well, you can call me a fusspot. a small slip and i practically start nitpicking at everything else. (yes, i too suspect that i suffer from OCD)

but when your school pays attention to even your attire for each day of orientation (it's listed in the orientation booklet), it's kinda hard for me not to put my hands up in the air and clap extravagantly while shouting (good) incomprehensible words.

in short, ya i'm quite happy (read: impressed) with the orientation so far, how it's being managed and the information they provide us with.

the handbook looks nice (my faceless yellow lion! now in multicolours!!) which is a definite plus.

oh the toilet is clean too. and there's toilet rolls in every stall (don't laugh, i even inspect the toilet)

no more running out of toilet paper at the worst possible moment 'cos some inconsiderate bitch took all the toilet paper from the ONLY toilet holder in the toilet.

...

shit, dude, i'm impressed by a clean toilet.

how much lower can you stoop?

i really appreciate that the OGLs would put in so much effort coming up with the banners and entire theme of the orientation (STEP UP!- the rainbow coloured "dance gangs", the backstory (yes there is one)

i'm in TYRAZ.

either you find the name totally awesome, or utterly frigging weird.

(FYI: the other groups are AGORIX AQUILLA IGORA LASZLO SOTERIOS)

you can tell how much i love the names 'cos i typed every one of them out. and coloured.

woot.

i feel welcomed :)

all i can hope for now is that i can continue staying in here.

i don't wanna leave my koi pond! *hugs koi*