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place your bets
the dice are about to be rolled.
no regrets
the pawns can no longer hold.


stupid little grins are giving my dimple sufficient exercise, thank you.

Why do angels fly?


got tagged by 2 people (yanhui and hsiangwei) to do 2 questionnaires. meh- just finished history essay so why not (i still have 2 more to do, SEA tutorial outline and econs test to study for........)

Yanhui's:

Happiness Meme :D :List ten things that recently made you happy, then tag ten people to do the same.

1. i finished my korean war essay.


2. i realised i still have a day to do the other 2 essays. and the tutorial outline. and to study econs.


3. watched finished 3 out of 4 newly bought BLEACH vcd boxes :3


4. watched byakuya fight. and kick ass. and still look good doing it.


5. I DRANK TEA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :33333


6. rediscovered my ability to write nice stories. nice angsty stories.


7. found a PW rep (thanks qiaowen!)


8. the com hasn't restarted on its own yet.


9. yanhui tagged me to do this.


10. yisheng. nuff said.
    

Hsiangwei's:

1. What do i need most now?

KANDA.

2. Have you given your first kiss away?

next.

3. If you were to be stranded on a desert island, who are the 3 buddies you would take with you? Why?

Captain Jack Sparrow. so he can use hair from his back to tie sea turtles together and get us off the island yisheng, yanhui and jade. 1st person for obvious reasons, 2nd and 3rd cos they'll keep me sane while the 1st one drives me insane. though he does have the highest possiblility of getting us off the island. *pause* then again.......

4. Where is the place that you want to go the most?

Anime land :3

5. If you can have 1 dream to come true, what would it be?

i would be married to kanda yu i believe we have to work to make our dreams come true. (right i just sidestepped the entire question :D)

7. What are you afraid to lose the most now?

my BLEACH vcd box 11 i'm such a coward, there are too many things i'm afraid of losing.

8. If you win $1 million, what would you do?

register myself as one of singapore's millionaires and hope to get into Forbe's richest people list.

9. If you meet someone that you love, would you confess to him/her?

if?

10. what is your favorite quotes?

(hsiangwei stated it's a grammatically wrong question xD) too many to name (most are fragmented in my mind D:)

11. What are the requirements that you wish from your other half?

ask yisheng.

12. Which type of person do you hate the most?

people who hate kandai don't believe in stereotyping people. (again, i've just sidestepped the entire question. go me!)

13. What is your ambition?

to have an ambition.

14. If you have faults, would you rather the people around you point out to you or would you rather they keep quiet?

point out. i can take it to the face. *points to cheek*

15. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?

kanda people i trust.

16. Are you a shopaholic or not?

ask my wardrobe. wait. what wardrobe?

17. Find a word to describe the person who tagged you.

gay amusing. in a good way.

18. If you have a chance, which part of your character you would like to change?

i am who i am. don't wanna change any part of me.

19. Is there anything that u have done that make regret?

(what is wrong with this thing's grammer??) yes. but i've learnt to accept it and learn from my.. "mistakes". i don't really see them as "regrets" or "mistakes". they're all a part of my life and experiences. suck it up and move on, what doesn't kill you only makes you stronger.

20. What are the characteristics/traits you look for in choosing your inner circle of friends?

it's an unconscious process. and it shall remain unconscious.

the 8 people i am going to tag:

anyone who wants to do this just do it. we're all bored people anyway. applies to first one as well.

meeeep- end of questionnaires. i once went around looking for this kinda quizzes to do (if that doesn't scream boredom i don't know what does).

oh get well soon yanhui. oh and. i'm willing to help you in any way you need. if you want my help that is heh.

we all need someone to be our punching bag :D

at 14, i discovered Naruto. i was fascinated at the ninjas, jutsu and of course, Hatake Kakashi.

i thought he was god's gift to fangirls.

at 15, i stopped reading or watching Naruto. the series was going on for too long.

i was no longer fascinated.

at 16, it bothered me how immensely popular Naruto was. i could no longer see why.

at 17, i re-discovered Naruto. i re-discovered Hatake Kakashi.

now i'm fascinated for very different reasons.

i'm glad the craze stayed.


my dog's birthday today.

happy b-day furry one (my cousin's name for him. his name's jesse. yeah he's a boy. male. cough.)

he's 11 this year.. so he's 77 years old in human years.

respect man, as he grows older, things change.

his payment looms, and all i can see is fear.

stupid, stupid, weakness.


i'm starting to love the simplicity of my old school phone. no camera, no notes function (though i'm abit sad about this one)..

functionality vs. superficial applications.

woots-

darn.

don't wanna keep falling and falling,
don't wanna be guilty of everything,
don't wanna be a good for nothing weakling.

argh.


my brain feels like it's being suspended.

oh wait it is.

clarification, feels like it's being suspended not in liquid but on tiny evil curved hooks.

it's expanding against the skull.

oh god.

my ego's growing.

damn.

it hurts.


i have too much free time.

come here and write crap about a life that's only on loan from Death.

poke a marshmallow, and the gooey insides will kill you.

rawr-

staring at a picture of a lock i drew.

listening to your guardian angel.

can you feel the emooooooooooooo-

i blame the neurons.

go grow mushrooms somewhere else *flops onto the ground*

i just wanna see him again.

hey green eyed monster, haven't seen you in awhile. would you like a cup of tea?
oh yes i have biscuits too.
you haven't visited in awhile. oh been busy somewhere else? great!
he asked you to come? waha, you didn't have to go through the trouble.
ah, no actually. i'm just letting you in for fun. *smiles*
to humour him of course!
he likes to make me feel jealous, but i guess you being here speaks volumes.
lol, can't really tell.
are you real or not?


2nd change of skin in 2 days.

i'm turning fickle.

who am i kidding, i always have been.

someone pointed it out once, didn't sit too well with me.

maybe 'cos i was just too stubborn to admit it.

though.. maybe i've finally found the stability i crave.

boink.

i gotta tread lightly now-

QING GONG! wahahaha.


damn it.

why do i always end up saying the wrong things.


whee- new skin!

it sort of suits me, yet sort of doesn't.

hmm.

too lazy to pick on nitty gritty details anymore.. well i did but i could have done much more xD haha

stupid OCD.

SOFTBALL CAMP!

me blogging obviously shows that SB camp is over.

overall it was quite fun (if training abs and intervals is your thing..) and i really had a wake up call (in many areas).

gotta do even better than before! *pumps fists*

sigh- did 8rounds on the track then 2oomx4, 1oomx8 intervals. suddenly, i felt as if i was back at SA campus, at athletics camp, with irontwelve, doing what we do best.

run.

with coach P and his menacing multi-lapse capable stopwatch(ES!)

the good ol' glorious times..

oh juniors having Wings tomorrow.

GOOD LUCK PEOPLE! :D keep the Carrot spirit burning!





SB camp tomorrow! (technically it's later.. cos it's already past midnight now..)

psyched? sort of. looking forward to more training (i seriously need to stick to the ground when i catch grounders *shrinks*)

but the schedule is kind of daunting..

past weekend was SRC tournament, next 2 days will be SB camp, following friday and saturday will be SRC again..

man.

holidays seem even more packed than schooldays *shrinks*

i have mr DL (that's deric low, not desmond lim RV peeps) homework!!!!!!!

and yet the only thing i can think of now is whether i've overpacked for SB camp.

god the kiasu-ness in me..

ah well, proves i'm a true blue (why blue? cos it rhymes with true??) singaporean.

kallang roar.

rawr.


i'm in shock.

i actually signed into hotmail. whoa.

trying to get windows live now.

maybe, just maybe, msn likes me again :D

hehe crossing all ten of my fingers-

toes too.


is it understanding? or icy distance?

is it freedom? or pure nonchalance?

is it forgiveness? or numbness, no longer caring to bother?

once again, questions of unworthiness arise from an abyss long forgotten, or more likely, stewing silently below the surface, purposeful ignorance the only wall between anguish and tears..

all he wanted to say was 'i love you',
all she wanted to say was 'i know'.

but she couldn't find the words. the message he sent, it was meant for her, in more ways than one.. if only he knew, she was the one who always came out saying the wrong things..
once again she wonders, about her place in his life, wondering, if she was ever worth his love..