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OH.MY.SHITS.

DUDES> SHITENHOUJI-MYU HAS BEEN ANNOUNCED!!!!!!!!!!

*hyperventilates* can't wait to see the cast for Shiten! :D Woohoo! Shiraishi better be drop dead gorgeous >:3

Tenimyu makes the world worth looking forward to *sparkles*


Went out with the Ycubes today! :D (YJ YH YT) super fun, as always. Went to Liang Court first to spend my Atsuki GL vouchers. Bought a top although I was kinda disappointed they haven't shipped in any new designs. Ah well, my vouchers are valid for a year so nyaha~ was a nice kid and sponsored YH's shirt (okay fine, half of YH's shirt) After that I acted like a retard and went to the toilet to change into my new top xD and proceeded to run past the shop when we exited the toilet to avoid the shopkeepers laughing at my idiocy, with YJ acting as my 'shield'. Although I think I drew much more attention that way D:

Browsed Kinokuniya next and saw a cool book entitled 'Hell'. Was a wuss and reasoned that I wanted to save money so I didn't seriously consider purchasing it >< d'oh- cm and her cowardliness! I actually like having alot of books around on my shelves. Because.. well, just because xD

GAH! WHEN IS PART 2 OF SIX SACRED STONES GOING TO COME OUT D:

The worst part was going down the escalator. 'Cos we had to pass by the shop AGAIN. Snickers all around-

Went to Suntec next and I totally made a fool out of myself in Raffles Link. I was jumping down the flight of stairs when my bag just got sprawled onto the floor. I think some auntie was like 'wtf is this person doing D:'

Needless to say, the Ycubes were totally trying to hold back their laughter while pretending they didn't know the airhead in black.

Crowning Moment of Awesome. Not.

It was fun browsing the shops at Suntec :D The teabreak & talk session at Starbucks was... enlightening, especially for YT xD

Sigh- puberty wasn't exactly fun blech.

FRAPPIESSSSSSSS <3

Enough about sinning, I got my printer ink :D From an aptly named shop called Singink. Smart people like me can see the link neh >D

Oh. I got totally pwned at Daytona.

As YH says, I shall go nurse my damaged ego...

"I have friends now."


I just wanna be lame at 3.39am. On my 369th post.
Woooo- sacred numbers (3 and its multiples!)

So today was PW at JM's house. Like I'm mega-jealous of her house and especially her room. Though I was tsunami-ed by Eddy and YT on the waterbed *seasick*

By the way, JM's looks kickass playing the guitar. And she listens to Metallica.

I think my captain is the coolest, most badass girl ever :B

Okay I should stop that. Before she punishes me with extra SB training for being weird- or something.

Her husky is too cute. Seriously. His 'lethargy' (docile nature?) is such a change from Jesse xD (my dog --> who has to go for an op soon! BOOO! T_T) But I was kinda like 'whoaa' when he sat in front of me. Like he's taller than me when I sit down when he sits down.

Dude. That's big yo.

Uh, so I think our group did quite a substantial amount of PW today. It seemed more productive compared to other days (it's the after-exam-booster!). It's the only official thing left the school can keep us occupied with blech.

Outing with the Y-cubes later! (YH YJ YT) Woo! Can't wait to ravage atsuki GL for gothic clothes and Harvey Norman for printer ink >D Hope I can finally spend my vouchers HEH!

Oh and Kimi Rai didn't win Singpore F1.

GR.

I love his name :B


Ouran High is a suprisingly inspiring series that teaches one about life and friends (:


Yup.

Promos are over.

I went to watch Michael Jackson's live performances.

And enjoyed them.

Badass.


I think he's the only one who can pull off golden shimmering pants >D

Oh. And DBSK's Mirotic (which is NOT a combination of the words 'me' and 'erotic') brings out the bad, bad side of me.

:D

Say they ain't cute.

Rikkai myu~ <3

They have seriously become the living, breathing embodiments of the Rikkai characters >D

It's 4.20am. And I was actually productive for about 3 hours? WHOA.

Apparently my best study hours are between midnight-2am.

..Right.

Was doing Lit- MITC. Gosh, I seriously admire Mr. Whitby. And his obviously enormous brain capacity (for Lit at least).

Was lame enough to take a picture of my study area:

Though I usually don't study in the kitchen. Maybe I should do so more often (I think white light is better than orange light (in the hall- plus hall has sofa and tv D:)

The glass table makes it hard to differentiate the levels though. (Like the floating biscuit container??)

ZOMG. I'm such a neat freak. *stares at highlighter arrangements* GO ME>!

Plus I have a habit of singing out loud when I'm studying. And bobbing. And I take up alot of space. Yes, the closet mugger life suits me just fine.

Well. At least I did something. To supposedly assuage my guilt for neglecting my books -__- (SEE! The word-book-collection thing DOES work! I learned 'assuage' from some article in The Straits Times HEH.)

YH's comment about her GP paper on MSN made me do it. Blech. Musn't give YH so much credit ooops can't say that or else I'll lose a valuable reader and commenter for my blog :x

YH is a motivation- bwahaha.

Okay I need sleep. I'm singing praises for YH, damnit!

ASDJHSJDHGSD!!!!!!!


cm has been totally blown away by Blaue Rosen (a.k.a Ai wo Utau yori Ore ni Oborero!) and its bishies. Who are mostly girls.

Yes, you read that right. The author enjoys screwing with her fans' minds and making the girls (and most of the guys) totally handsome while the main guy looks like a girl. Well, until he shows his 'dark' side.

AKIRA.IS.HOT. I think I went like "OMFG AKIRA~!!!! -insert flailing/goldfish expression-" times infinity while I was reading the manga on mangafox.

I think my mum won't let me borrow the series from my comic shop ): It has a 'unsuitable for the young' sticker on the cover. blech.


Not like.. it's anything explicit... well, at least up to volume 3 :x I think things get less PG starting from vol. 4. And that particular author is famous (?!) for her sex-y comics.

The fact that Akira's voice actor for the drama CD is Hoshi Shoichiro further adds to the hotness factor- not only does Akira totally look like Kira from Gundam Seed, his seiyuu is the same! And well, their names are practically THE SAME TOO.

Anime producers love screwing with fangirl minds...




This is Akira in 'Kyaaaa- I -hearts- my Mizuki-chan!' mode
(Characters: Blue hair- Nikaidou Ran, Light brown hair+hugging Akira- Sakurazaka Mizuki, Blonde- Kiryuuin Rui, Brown hair (centre of pic)- Shiraishi Akira)

By the way. Mizuki's a girl. The author loves to screw with our minds, neh?


This is Akira in 'Don't fuck with me'/'Don't you DARE touch MY Mizuki' mode.

Yup. He's hot. (yes I know I like 2D guys who look like girls. With an evil streak >D Or they have long skinny hair. Like Niou :3 Okita Ai's hair is awesome in this manga too, but she's a girl T_T Naruse Kaoru (Shun) too.. And Kaoru only appears for the first 10 pages of the comic -__- damn.)

Did I mention the clothes they wear are totally badass and rock-my-goddamn-socks-off? Like the totally Atsuki GL kind >D GO BLAUE ROSEN!!!!!

And, Blaue Rosen is german for 'blue roses'- I think yh would be interested in that little fact :)


Damn, I forgot what it was like to study hard for an exam and then get the good grades. Hopefully. *shoots self in arse for laziness*


NFUFU-

I found $2 on the floor just now (as in, in my house.)

Finders keepers! >D

Oh, yish praised the icon I made :3 *ish happy*


whoa.

Edgar Allan Poe wrote a poem called 'Annabel Lee'.


*flops over computer table*

It's 6.07am. I just spent the last 2/3 hours on this blogskin (yes it's unsophisticated shit compared to the previous one and yes it's practically the same as the Hyotei one I did)

But Hotaru is worth it :B

I'm so glad there's no school today.


YEAH! Tenimyu confirmed SAFE! Doesn't clash with any PW thing :D

Whoa. Apparently there's a Jap cultual exchange thingy at the end of the year with Waseda. Damn, I wanna go ): but it clashes with my Hokkaido holiday (aw.. *pokes fingers together*)

Ah well, you win some, you lose some.


in·cum·bent
–adjective
1. holding an indicated position, role, office, etc., currently: the incumbent officers of the club.
2. obligatory (often fol. by on or upon): a duty incumbent upon me.
3. Archaic. resting, lying, leaning, or pressing on something: incumbent upon the cool grass. –

noun
4. the holder of an office: The incumbent was challenged by a fusion candidate.
5. British. a person who holds an ecclesiastical benefice.

Incumbent doesn't really mean 'existing' :s (but in that particular 'government' context I guess so)


Gosh it's been so long since I ranted about well, anything.

CM's been a happy camper these few months (after the dreaded CTs were over. Anybody see a pattern here? No exams = happy content CM. Approaching exams = bitchy sardonic CM) but oh, the dark side had to resurface.

What would CM do without her asshole side yes?

Well now. Two issues today (nods nods). Death (and whatever hell sub-catergories Mr. Whitby wants to add in eg. transience v permanence, time, etc.) and certain... perceptions.

Gosh I use brackets alot, don't I? A reviewer on fanfiction.net said it once. Tsk tsk- I never learn, do I?

So. Anywhos-

Death is always a part of life. Death exists because there is life. (I can hear all the Ao1 Lit students going "Man loves a little, and for long shall die/Man's love is transient as his death is long")

Please insert a gnawing action because my brain feels like doing that now. On its own leg or something.

I've spent years trying to understand. And then when you don't, you only end up realising how pathetically stupid, fragile and maggoty you are.

Goddamn, humans are weak. I am weak. (My gosh it's going back to the transcendence-of-current-human-understanding thing again!)

-is interrupted by yish's sudden MSN plea of "take care ok". Can he read my mind or something? I only said "hey" before that. Damn you-

Anywhos- gosh what's this? I keep breaking up my sentences/paragraphs. Readers won't be pleased. Well, unless the one reading this is me but BESIDES THE POINT>

So well. Cancer. It's... bizarre, to put it mildly. I don't read medical journals and when she died I was too young to comprehend how your own cells started attacking your own organs.

Started attacking you. From the inside.

And then when he died, I was older of course, but apparently not much wiser (should start picking up medical journals on cancer. But do they include what I'm trying to understand? I get the feeling no.) Because I still don't get death. I know what it is (wait. Do I?), I've seen it first-hand, but I don't understand. And I think I still don't accept it.

Grim Reaper, I insult you so.

And now. Now what. He is suspected but not confirmed (like, trend in the family says probably- GODDAMN it's too fast! The other he just died this year? His bones were BURNED, CREMATED, they were bloody chalky white! I put his spine bone into the urn for god's sake! His wife was screaming bloody murder and she scared the shit out of me when she fainted!) and my dog's growing old. No scratch that. I knew it a long time ago. He's old. He may not look it but he's old. And when you're old, you grow weaker. And when you're weaker your body doesn't function like when you were a puppy. (I am seriously, seriously refraining from using caps now) No, your anal sacs burst. You bleed. Medical advances tell you your doggie's got to go for an operation. But then they turn around and bite you on the arse by saying he may not be able to take it. Because he's old.

God, are we all that fragile?

Damn it.

DAMN IT.

I said before and I'll say it again, I don't hate who I am, but I hate what I am.

I hear the thunder roaring, I hear the demons wailing, I hear the banshees screeching, Hell is loose upon our mortal world.

Our mortality sickens me.

Onwards:

Perceptions. Tricky things ain't they? Everybody has them. Everybody believes in their own. So what do you do when they're in conflict with others?

Is reality different then? Is there a right and a wrong reality?

There are only human minds.

I dislike the thinking/perception that an only child is lonely. Because then people are comparing the only child to children with siblings. And that's kind of like comparing apples to oranges isn't it?

Not only that, family situations vary from household to household. Peaches to pears.

I don't know. I've never wanted a sibling, never dreamed of having a sibling, never felt the 'loneliness' (whatever that means) because in the first place, I'm not a people person. (of course we can go into the whole cause-and-effect thing but it'd be too tedious)

Another human being in my life this close to me is just another annoyance really.

Now people with siblings, don't go all defensive and say "You don't understand the beauty of family love and kinship, you heartless bitch!". I said, this is my view, my thinking. My situation, my upbringing, my life is different from yours so I'll have different views on certain issues. You don't have to like it, you don't have to accept it, you don't have to care. Although I do appreciate whoever it is that is still reading this rant. Or just some words thrown together (whether they make sense or not, is another question. See, to me these words will make sense no matter what. But does that matter? It's like art, ain't it? Mentioned in KI class, some people think that art is only art when other people (besides the artist) comment or view the actual art piece. Something like that. So there. Thought exercise for the day. Go, spew forth some brains!)

Whooo- that was heck of a-intensive, sire. Our thoughts really are fragmented. And speech-like. It's nice to actually experience literary techniques so you get a better feel of them.

Lit opens many windows, yes?

The brain agrees. It's more ventilated now. It thinks better.

But apparently, not good enough.

Tsk.

Oh and I read something interesting in a fic once.

Laziness was a judgement that other people passed. (all credits to Satri on fanfiction.net)

Best damn thing I ever read :)

*small note: when I said another human being this close to me in my life is an annoyance, I meant it on a family-level. Like you eat the same food, breathe the same air, stay in the same house, as the person. Not friends. I love my friends. I cannot stress that enough.

But you know what? People are the daily reminders that reality has a hold over me.

Hm. Marriage seems improbable now, don't it?

Family, marriage, husband, love, acceptance, devotion. That's for another time.

Right now, the ol'brain wants to have a spin at Neopets :D

And then we cry.

EDIT: I think the word that effectively sums up this entire post is Helplessness. And to think I didn't care.


My dog's cowering under the chair 'cos he's afraid of the storm (thunder).

He's shivering ):

Promos' coming. So wtf am I doing refreshing the Neopets Food Shop page over and over at 3.30am.


Oh my.

People are actually right (for once).

Okay that was a cheap shot.

Anywho, they're right.

The Internet IS a way to escape from the cruelties of reality D:

I hate my job.

(Samson pointed out: I don't hate my job. I hate what it makes me do.
Wow. I didn't know he had brilliance in him *nods in an impressed way*)

There was a need to numb my brain with high-pitched girly rapping.

Can I call it rapping?

Whatever.

*scans scene for carnage*

I see dead people. Many dead people.

Oh I like the graphics in the song actually. Quite good.

And I'm bobbing to the song.

Oh god.

Not-totally-related-but-still-kinda-linked-to-post: Watching Yu-Gi-Oh! The Abridged Series makes your brain go DA-DUM!

The lyrics of the song scares me .______.

CM is considering selling off her Tsubasa Reservoir Chronicle manga (need for shelf space and moolah$)

Anyone interested?

(note: this is not a serious request. although anyone who is interested can (seriously) approach CM :D)


He does not speak, he does not listen,
He observes, unconsciously.
He does not remember
Only dreams fill his memory.

And as the morning star falls
Something within him stirs.
The tainted heavens
Remind him of things long forgotten.

Solitude...


Finished watching Constantine.

Badass much?

(slight degression: just watched Final Fantasy XIII's newest trailer (supposedly). Lightning kicks major ass. It's graphics and fantasy worlds like these that make life interesting)

I really, really need to work my brain.

We walk this earth, tattooed with our sins
We ask for redemption, in the Father's eyes
Gabriel has spoken, passed judgement
For Man has always been a transient phase.

Flames, they do not burn
But the blood on his skin sears like the phoenix's wings
He smiles
This is what it means to live.

CM has discovered Hotaru.

And she thinks that blood tattoos are the coolest, most badass things ever.

CM thinks her (originally non-existant) study time will once again be sapped away by anime fandom-ness.

Yes, sexy bishounens do bad things to CM's academics.